First rush of self-empowerment now muted

After the first rush of enthusiasm I achieved from reading the Self-Defeating Behaviors book, I'm back to wondering if I actually do have the strength (or whatever it takes) to make significant life changes or even to finish my current novel. Rick tells me that this is simply the human struggle for enlightenment and that it is very difficult. True.

He suggested that I continue tapping (the Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT)) on all my issues and sub-issues, and I made a list of them. Then, he suggested I simply release my attachment to accomplishing things that seem well-nigh impossible, to not be neurotic or anxious about things. That, of course, is the exact opposite to ways I normally deal with problems, and I suspect it is for others, too. But there might be ways to redirect my focus to healthier issues that would serve to help me accomplish the same goals. I don't know. All this is rather abstract for me, but I'll think about it.

When I checked the bank balance this morning, I had a wonderful opportunity to apply detachment and refocus. We had less money than I expected (of course!) but after momentary panic, I thought of ways to cut back next month and the problem didn't seem so insurmountable, after all.